aliasxneo3

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Depression by aliasxneo3, literature

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Depression

Depression I'm not a nice person. I'm moody, I have a lot of peeves. Small things get on my nerves quicker than they should. And I hate myself for it. I hate myself. I wish I were so many different things. I wish I could be sweet, shrug things off as if they were nothing. Because let's be honest, they're nothing that I make into something. I don't know why I'm this way. I'm sad, angry, and pathetic. I'm an embarrassment to my family. They deserve better than me. I hate myself for what I've put them through. Dead or alive I'll hurt them. I could selfishly put myself out of my own misery and destroy them; or I could muddle through as a constant reminder of failure. Maybe I pity myself too much. I cry all the time when I think about what I am. Hopeless, depressed, useless. Who's fault is it but my own? I could stop at any time, right? I could turn all of this off and be normal. I think that's what they think. They want me to wake up tomorrow a completely different person. They want

Never Meant to be Alone by aliasxneo3, literature

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Never Meant to be Alone

Sometimes we sit in darkness and think Is there someone here? Is there someone watching over us? We fall so far that there are times where… Getting back up is as though we’re climbing Everest Hope has fled Dreams are drowned Opportunities have been crushed We turn our backs to the very people here to help us And for what reason? Depression settles in like a dark cloud And pessimism rains down drenching us All color in our vibrant eyes washes away Staining them with grey, hopeless bags And we wonder is there any way out Is there any way out of our self-made mess Is there any way to overcome the rock blocking our path We cannot

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Aug 21
United States
Deviant for 13 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: Unknown space.
deviantWEAR sizing preference: S
Favourite genre of music: Rock/Swedish metal/ ETC.
Favourite photographer: My parents.
Favourite style of art: Realistic or comic.
Personal Quote: This is madness

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idk!

Favourite Movies

Gladiator

Favourite TV Shows

Locked Up Abroad

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Red, 116 clique, and other people

Favourite Books

The Chronicles of the Black Company? That sounds good.

Favourite Writers

Yeah, none really.

Favourite Games

Minecraft and Portal 2

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS3 FTW

Other Interests

Psychology, writing, photography, and occasionly sketching.

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aliasxneo3

Nov 2, 2013

ARTIST BLOCK

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It's what we all fear most and what I currently am suffering from. Any ideas on how to overcome artist block would be greatly appreciated. Anyone who helps me will get a dancing unicorn bear. Okay...a picture of a dancing unicorn bear. My dealer ran out. Help me please!!!!!! Do it for the sake of my parents. I don't know how long they'll take my incessant complaining of no inspiration.

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aliasxneo3

Dec 30, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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I'm such an awkward person....but um....just letting you guys know I might be a little slower in writing again because of artists block and some other things ya'll wouldn't care to hear about... Oh...I got a new camera finally so I'll spending more time messing with it....maybe upload some stuff....I actually think I have a picture I might upload soon so...if any of you guys are interested in photography I can upload more pictures if your interested in seeing what I've got...I'm not that bad of a photographer.... For those of you who read this....thanks....

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aliasxneo3

Aug 7, 2012

Devious Journal Entry

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I'm rather bored, so I'm going to waste time by writing this pointless journal entry. Yay. So I noticed I've finally uploaded 100 deviations. Is that exciting? I'm a bit psyched...but I think instead of poetry I'm going to begin to upload more photography. I've been obsessed with my camera lately, not sure why. Its like a drug. Like...photoweed. Yeah. A new drug I made. Whoo. Okay....anyway. My photography is going to consist of a mix of concepts, I hate sticking to the norm. Don't get me wrong, I'll still write my poetry but just not as often. I'll try to get in at least two poems a month, which will probably backfire but its worth a sh

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aliasxneo3

Aug 12, 2020

I'm leaving this here for my future self more than anything. I'm 23 now and my mental health has been a parasite burrowed deep into my life for as long as I can possibly remember. Looking back at the old work I posted here I can see all the warning signs leading to my anxiety, depression, and subsequent failure as an adult. My depression has destroyed any creativity I once harbored. Its destroying me. Sometimes I still feel like the 13 year old girl who posted here as an outlet.